I need an opinion. Not yours, but mine. Over the last couple of months I've come to see that one of the things that I’ve considered in the past to be a strength of mine is actually a weakness. I am opinionless. I really just don’t care about a lot of things. I’ve always considered it to be one of my strengths. You know, I’m the “easy to please” kinda guy. I just don’t worry about things. You know the scenario. Where do you want to eat? I don’t care. I’m up for anything as long as people are happy. You could probably fill in just about any question there and my response would be the same. I’m a people pleaser which, if I think about it, is probably a weakness as well. I’m mean what kind of goal is that? To make “everyone” happy? It’s just not going to happen.
I’ve also thought some about how this impacts my faith. I’ve never considered myself to be a zealous person. It’s just not in my make-up*. I have a hard time cultivating the types of habits that zealous people have like the daily quiet time, the constant, fervent prayer and so forth. I’ve often felt guilty that I don’t possess this quality because I feel that it’s reflective of my love for Christ**. It comes across as laziness which may not be an entirely inaccurate description.
So, I need an opinion. I need a little pride***. I need to find the things in my life that are worth getting ticked off about. The things in my life that need defending – even against the people that I most want to please. I guess my theory up to this point was that if people get what they want then they’ll be happy, which makes me happy because I’ll take whatever.
So, in the spirit of Easter and Christ’s resurrection to a new life, I’m praying for a renewed zealousness**** for the things I love.
Happy Easter, everyone.
* Maybe it’s genetic or maybe it’s a result of the way I was raised or some other Freudian reason that I couldn’t know without 2 months of extensive therapy. Either way, it just not a quality I possess
**…love. Maybe part of the definition of this word is “zeal” for something. …or at least maybe it ought to be for me. I mean if I truly love something doesn’t that implies that I should have a strong opinion about it?
*** You know, the good kind.
**** Is that a word?
Note: For those of you who know that the last New Year's resolution I made was to never make another New Year's resolution I would like to point out that this is very much not a New Year's resolution as this is an "Easter resolution" and my streak is intact. Thank you.
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Jeramie-- I think this is an excellent resolution. But, I would like to say that I think you are opinionated, about what matters. Whenever we talk about "stuff that matters" (not food choices and such), I see you as an opinionated and truly caring person. It is always good to have renewed zealousness and to evaluate where your opinions lay, or do not lay, so I think this is great! I think that its great to step out of your comfort zone and that you will make a big difference by doing so.
I will pray for your zeal this Easter season!
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